Blog redesign + restart
Blog redesign + restart
Okay, so I’ve been ignoring this blog for approximately two years. It’s not that I wanted to necessarily, so much as I just… found that grad school is a lot, and anxiety/depression is a lot, and I only have so many spoons. I mean, I also tried to start a vlog, made one single video, and then promptly worried so much about being interesting and making decent-looking video that I never made another episode. Oops?
But, on the plus side, while I was not blogging or vlogging, I was completing my first two years of grad school. During that time I got multiple papers accepted to conferences, one of which received a top paper award and one of which was a runner up for top paper. The direct-to-PhD program I’m in was modified so that instead of having to take four years of coursework in three years (while writing a thesis) in order to earn an MA along the way towards earning the PhD, my cohort could choose to drop the MA part and just do three years of coursework and a “research portfolio” at the end of the second year. I switched to that track and successfully defended my research portfolio at the end of this past spring semester, so yay! Two years down, three to go!
One interesting development from that was that although I already had an idea for dissertation research that involved feminist discourse in fandom spaces, one of the papers I submitted as part of my research portfolio was on MCU Captain America and masculinity. My committee really liked it, and when one of them said “what if… you wrote your dissertation on Captain America?” I smiled and said “I mean, twist my arm harder.” So, although there’s still some time before things will actually get moving there, it looks like I’ll be writing my dissertation about my favorite superhero. My paper was just about MCU Cap, and there just about the Cap films, but if/when I dissertate about Cap I will most likely expand out into the comics and also expand out from just talking about the exploration of masculinity in his narrative to also explore how the various Cap narratives deal with things like race as well.
Last year, and especially last spring, I had a lot of problems with executive dysfunction thanks to my anxiety. In an effort to help with that, I’ve decided to take up bullet journaling. I’ve been doing it for about a month now and I’m liking it a lot so far. I’ve been doing a lot of the fiddly bits, creative lettering, doodles, etc., which does make it take more time than it would if I were just doing the ultra minimalist style. But I think it ends up working as sort of art therapy. I don’t always finish my entire to-do list, and there’s definitely still things I’ve been pushing along forever. But on the whole I think it’s been helpful, and I think it will continue to be helpful once school starts up again and things get really busy. In fact, I might even set up a separate journal for school from the one I use for everyday, but I haven’t decided yet. WE SHALL SEE. At any rate, assuming I can actually manage to regularly update this blog, I’m going to be posting about my bujo adventures here in addition to my grad school adventures. To that end, I’ll probably actually try to do some post idea brainstorming in my bullet journal in addition to tracking when I post.
In other news, I got some reading/computer glasses recently. They’re an incredibly light prescription – the lightest reading glasses you can get – but I was having this weird problem where when I’m doing a lot of reading, particularly on screens, my focus would just slide out and then I’d have to consciously think about focusing again, and then it would be fine. Apparently, according to the eye doctor, my left eye muscles are having to work harder than my right eye muscles to maintain focus, so they get tired faster. Hence, reading glasses to help with eye strain. So now I’m just wearing those the majority of the time that I’m spending on the computer or reading. Helpfully, because the prescription is so light/they’re just readers, they don’t really mess with my distance vision, so if I’m also watching TV or if I go check them mail or something and forget to take the glasses off, it doesn’t mess with my vision.